Am I Ready for This Kid Life?!

Being in the waiting pool hasn't been as anxiety ridden as I thought!  Sure, it is a lil nerve wracking, but I wouldn't even use the word nerve.  Maybe just unsettling.  You just feel like you are always 'on call', but for me, not really anxious, just feeling like a Dr. minus the whole went to school for 1000 years, minus the 12 hour surgeries, minus the big brains they carry around in their heads.  Mine is tiny, but it is sweet, so it has something going for it!

 Do not judge my artistic abilities!  Paint is quite hard to draw in ;)

I am not going to lie, after chasing my 7 year old nephew around for over an hour with nerf guns, I DID wonder...am I ready for this every day at some point, do I have the energy to be a stay at home mom, too?  Then I remembered I taught a room full of 3 year olds and I survived.  I looked over at the hubs to see how he was hangin...and well...he was hangin, alright! On the side of the couch, eyelids drooping.  I noted to myself that I may end up being the more physical parent and continued shooting at my nephew.  Who cheated btw!  Whoooo shoots you while you reload?!  Definite rematch!  Anyway, I do realize parenting is way different than teaching, HOWEVER, I did somehow gain energy I never knew I had.  I rode tricycles in circles for hours (yep still fit..somewhat!), ran up slides to catch the kiddos and did all of their activities with them.  So I am hoping the same will come with parenting...I will somehow gain the ability to stay awake after a sleepless night or play chase til my toes hurt.  I look forward to it...I am ready for you lil bean!  Am I ready to worry the rest of my life? Am I ready to change 8000 diapers and clean up vomit?  NOPE, but who is?  Hopefully I will also gain a Valium and a nose plug.

 I take it back, I do not want to gain a nose plug.

This past week has been insane, being away in Boston, having my nephew, going to our family's for Easter and today is my Birthday! (Go ahead, you can sing!!)  I have birthday activities all week through Saturday and my dad is coming on Wednesday, so this week is shot for any more baby prepping.  In a way, all these distractions are good, and maybe why I don't have any anxiety while we 'wait', but I feel behind on some stuff we need to do (make sure we know how to put car seat in, hang black out curtains, etc.), but if all goes average, we have plenty of time!  If all does not...we are ready enough!  My mama always said, "Nobody is ever reeeeeally ready for a baby."  So I will just join the rest of the world, either way!  And  will be attending the 'baby care' class next Monday JUST in case! 

Warmin' up my swaddle hands, being glad I do not have a nose plug,
Bumpless Baby Mama